How do resentments appear?! What benefit does the system derive from it? Olya, USA. My insights 3. LIFE VLOG.
Life is so beautiful and good, but everything changes when they come! Resentments! How many times in our life we hear: you offended me, or I myself experienced this unpleasant feeling. How much time and energy it takes without a twinge of conscience, taking away precious moments of joy and happiness. How and why it happens, who provokes them in us and why it's always important to remember the main thing!
Olya from US shares her understandings in a VLOG format about what a resentment is, why it hurts a person so often and how to get rid of this pattern of one’s own consciousness. How to become free from resentments?
These insights came after watching the programme: "Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive."
Hello everyone! Guys, today I would like to share with you my understandings and insights after watching the programme "Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive."
Once came an understanding that I'm a fan of ‘taking offense’. And really, like Zhanna says, you feel so frustrated, so unhappy, so ohh- ohh -ohh, and so important, just like a turkey. And you know, these resentments, they always try to come in, get into my life. Resentments at my husband, at my friends, at my parents. At parents for something that they didn’t give me, or could’ve given me more. At my husband for not doing what I want, at friends because they don’t invite me somewhere. And the funniest things happen with my friends... this is such a funny case that sometimes it happens that you are not invited somewhere, or you are not included in chat, or you open Facebook, and there are some events that took place without you. And so I sit and listen: "No one likes you, no one needs you, you mean nothing at all." And all this, well, you get my point… And then comes resentment against the entire world! It simply overwhelms you. Or, for example, someone discussed something without you (we work in a group), talked without you, decided something. And you hear, and the first thing that comes to your mind: "They didn’t call me, they are hiding everything from me." And the consciousness starts to get me worked up: "You see! No one wants to be your friend, you'll be alone. You will be an outcast." And again, the resentments just keep sweeping over you.
And you know, I decided to sort it all out after watching the programme. Because to live in these grievances, constantly accusing someone of something, and listen to the consciousness, it’s just, I don’t know... I got such an understanding, because of all this, I realized what it means to be a subpersonality. That if I still live all day with these accusations, these resentments, it’s not clear what and why. You know, there was this situation when I created a common chat for my birthday party and invited everyone. And I was sure that I sent it to everybody and everyone will read it. And it so happened that I didn’t include one girl. And I didn’t even notice that. After some time passed, she texts me: "Hi Olya! Don’t you want me to come to your birthday party? You didn’t include me in the chat."Can you imagine? It was such a shake-up for me! First of all, it was very significant that a person didn’t start coming up with anything, didn’t make anything up. He just honestly texted me: "Don’t you want me to come to your birthday?" For me, it was just such a great example how to react so that not to listen to consciousness, to what it is telling me, but honestly ask the person what’s going on. Why it happened like that. And not to think, not to take offense for this. And another thing is that sometimes people really just forget. I run around all day and just forgot. I was absolutely sure that I wrote to her, included her in this chat. So I didn’t even believe it when she wrote me that I didn’t include her. I opened my phone and checked. And indeed, she wasn’t included! This is another moment, that you should not listen to your consciousness, when it tells you, when it as if turns you against other people. You must sort it out immediately. And if you don’t want to analyze the situation, then just ignore your consciousness and don’t let it spin the whole picture. And you know, when I realized that all those resentments... or for example, it happens a lot if my husband didn’t do something, or said something offensive, and such resentment sweeps over me. And in my mind: "He always does it like this! But I am so good, I have this and that ... " And Zhanna’s words come up: "And you are so offended by the entire world. So important!" And you know, somehow it lets go. I'm standing and thinking: "What the heck!? Well, maybe a person was in a bad mood or something else. What’s the difference to me! You may call me a stump, nothing will change." And when you are honest with yourself, when you ignore consciousness... To try to see the best in a person, to try to cultivate the best in yourself and to learn to feel what’s really going on. This is what is very important! Because I decided that I don’t want to take offence at people anymore. I don’t want to listen to my consciousness anymore, of course, it still keeps trying to let me quarrel with the girls. But, thank God, if any provocations come up, like: they don’t want to be your friends or they don’t need you, I just immediately write to them: girls, this is going on, please what should I do? And they always reply that it is all rubbish, don’t listen to your consciousness. Just like this. And the more of this honesty exists between us, the less I listen to my consciousness. And those provocations from the secondary consciousness which used to be very painful for the primary consciousness, now it’s like: "Oh, ok, everything is clear! You're trying to make us quarrel. " And the funniest thing is that again all this is done to disconnect me from other people, to separate me. Because when we are together, we do some fruitful work, especially in groups, or in some projects, there is productive work, and this is not beneficial to the system. And that's why it tries to cast all sorts of bait like you're important, and everyone should listen to you, and everyone should share with you. And if someone didn’t share something with me – that’s it! They don’t respect me. And this honesty between us, this understanding of: who in me is taking offence now, for whom it’s offensive, who is just sitting there and waiting. And with whose help it gets resentful, who casts all those incomprehensible thoughts. It became much easier to live. So much easier! And this concept, that consciousness always lies! It has all these tricks, some of its unreasonable stories, some of its data based on past experience. Indeed, the more you delve into this, the more you realize that all this is directed only at enslaving me as the Personality. But thanks to this and to the programme, I’ve got another experience, that nothing prevents me from turning toward the Source - toward my Soul. From giving it my attention. And now, you know, it's such a feeling when the secondary consciousness is mumbling something, the primary consciousness reacts with its emotions, I just turn away from this, and turn my face towards the Source - towards my Soul. I feel this joy, I feel this peace, this happiness! And it fills me up. And there is no more suffering or stress, those unnecessary thoughts, those obsessive, intrusive thoughts. All this just disappears, just like that. Of course, there are still moments when I surrender to all this, get in and listen. Even tears are welling up... But you know, it happens, tears came up, some thoughts came up, something else happened... But then, like a tub of cold water, like a breeze. And all of a sudden you remember, actually, why, why do I need this? It’s better to turn your attention to where it should be. And not to listen to that constant chatter in my head, and not to experience these painful emotions from the secondary consciousness. These are my discoveries and understandings for today!You know, it became easier to live without resentments. Why didn’t it happen before? But now it's so great!
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