In this vlog:
- About the experience and understanding gained through videos with the participation of Igor Mikhailovich Danilov and books by Anastasia Novykh.
- About the dual nature in oneself.
- About doubts, and what they are.
- When does the real choice begin?
Videos with Igor Mikhailovich Danilov
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Nicole: Hello, everyone, dear friends! My name is Nicole. And today I’d like to talk to you about the following topic. You know, all people, absolutely everyone without exception, even those who have not yet come across the Knowledge, who do not have certain information — they all feel and know their dual nature. It has basically been known from time immemorial. People have mentioned this in culture and talked about this everywhere, and everyone feels that there is this instigator inside, who tells you, “Step over some situation, over some person. You’ll feel good about it. Why would you give it away? Take it for yourself! You need it more! You need this and that and the third…”
And there’s this second part, which at the inner level just doesn’t allow you to step over something, to do something bad to anyone so that it is better and beneficial for you. Or to step over, as they call it, your moral principles or some foundations, mindsets and so on. And if we are honest, if everyone honestly observes himself, he will see this dual nature in himself as well as these two parts. And people always knew about this, always drew pictures that there is a demon on one shoulder and an angel on the other one, that is, one advises something good, the other one — something bad, and a person chooses. Even children know about this, everyone knows about this. People described it as black and white and so on.
And you know, this dark part, which is (as Igor Mikhailovich said in the video) consciousness, is very noisy, it announces itself, it screams, it is intrusive, it makes you do one thing or another. However, it makes you do it only by means of thoughts, it tells you what you need to do one way or another. And you know that it exists, you hear it, and you get used to it because it announces itself.
While this second part, which is inside you, also speaks to you, but it does it not by means of words, it speaks its own language, the language of feelings. And it is inner, it is quiet, it is calm, and it gives you an inner understanding of how to act or what to do in one or another situation. And in order to learn to hear this inner which you have inside, which is your real self, which is your real light part or a Personality — if you want to learn to live by this and to hear this, to hear the language of feelings, then you have to muffle this noise which comes from your consciousness.
And when you make a decision to act like that, then, in the beginning, you move and it’s not so easy for you. You go, do your best, stumble, get up again, go and keep trying. You do not have such strong and deep manifestations from your soul, from the Spiritual World immediately. I mean, you don’t feel free, you don’t feel as Personality right away. And you begin to doubt, consciousness throws in a bunch of moments, doubts, “Is there this light at all? Is there a Personality at all?” You begin to doubt everything, you think, “Maybe I should just live an ordinary life, the way I’m already used to, and learn all the shades of the dark? Because it is somehow calmer this way — to be content with it. While I’m going no one knows where. Maybe this doesn't exist at all, maybe I'm wasting my time.” And these doubts begin.
Do you know why there are these doubts? Because you have only cognized one part, only this part is available to you. You have cognized all the shades of the dark, got used to living with it, and it already seems normal to you. You do not even notice at some points how loud this noise in your head is.
Yet, the aspiration remains. You listen to other people who say that they have cognized the light, cognized their Soul. You hear them and somehow you feel inside that they tell the truth. And you yourself know that this is true. You feel that everything is for a reason and that there is something greater. And still, no matter what, you keep going. And the only real way to end this circus in your head and calm down is to cognize, no matter what, no matter how much pressure is exerted on you. Simply to cognize the manifestations of the Spiritual World in spiritual practices or to feel your true self.
Then you will already have an understanding that there is white and black. Meaning, you have cognized one thing and the other. You have something to compare with. And you can already choose. And when this is really your experience, it is yours — it's a fact. It always stays with you. And then no matter what counter-arguments consciousness may have, no matter what it tells you, no matter how logically it builds its chains, you know that your inner experience is always with you, it is there. And you know that you have cognized it. That is, you cannot shove it anywhere or say that it didn't happen, because it happened.
And at this moment, when you already know both the light part and the dark part, then you have cognized this dual nature in yourself. And then you begin to see this duality in everything around you, you see it in every situation. Every situation is dual: you can observe it from the perspective of consciousness, but you can also observe it from the perspective of your light spiritual component, your Personality. You feel this situation in its entirety, and in the same way you see how consciousness draws, adds certain colors, what paints it uses for all this. And you simply perceive it all holistically, from two sides, because you yourself are like this.
In the same way, you perceive people dually, too. You see the dual nature in every person. You see where there is this light component in a person, you see that he is the same as you. You see consciousness in him, the same as yours. And when a person speaks from consciousness, you don’t even get angry at him, you just feel that something is wrong. But at the same time, you feel that th ere is also another component, this bright little human who is inside each of us — the Personality who aspires...
The only thing that Personality has is a sincere aspiration for Love, for exploring oneself and the Spiritual World. This sincere aspiration. You know, it's like there is a little child who is open to everything, to cognition, who wants to live and has an aspiration for life, but there is this manipulator — consciousness that confuses him and so on. And this little child gets confused and sometimes may turn in the wrong direction after listening to the adviser in his head.
But the most important thing is that even if at some point you accepted it, you felt that you turned in the wrong direction, and you already understand that this has happened, and you realize that you've stumbled — you should never be afraid to come back, because… You know how consciousness draws that “that's it, it's the end of the world, you have taken a wrong path, maybe you have taken someone else with you along the wrong path — that's it, you’re done, you are a worthless creature, the path to light is already closed for you." But this isn’t so.
This is similar to the following association: for example, your loved person has disappeared for a week, he does not call, does not write, there is no news from him — he is no one knows where and missing for a week. Then, a week later he comes back, all beaten up and worn out, it is clear that something terrible has happened to him, and the only thing you have is that you see him and you are glad that he is still alive, that he is there and he is back. And you meet him only with this sincere open-hearted joy. And you don't care why he disappeared. You will do everything to help this person so that you can continue to walk together side by side. And it doesn't matter what was happening to him.
It’s the same in the Spiritual World: it doesn’t matter what you have to overcome, it doesn’t matter whether you turn off the path or not, the main thing is for you to come, for you to aspire. There are very cool motivating words in the book AllatRa on the first page.
“...To climb up over sharp stones, scraping your nails until they bleed and falling down the slippery ledges, sweet from the mind; then to get up anew, having regained spiritual strength, and crawl again... is not for everyone...”
Excerpt from “Cry of an Angel Clad in Clothes, or Sufferings of a Human with an Angel instead of a Soul”
from the book AllatRa
These words are so motivating, and you realise that only someone who doesn’t walk and doesn’t do anything, doesn't stumble. Whereas a person who actually follows the path has to overcome something. And many times it was said that the more difficult is the fight, the more well-deserved is the victory. Therefore, it is so precious, even if at some point you have been conned by some system’s schemes, persuasions, doubts from consciousness and turned off the path, but still, you came back. And you can share this experience with others, other people will only be happy and grateful for this experience.
There are also very motivating words that Igor Mikhailovich said in the video “GOD IS THE ULTIMATE HIGH”, which I'd like to show you.
Excerpt from the video “GOD IS THE ULTIMATE HIGH”
IM: Well, after all, we love our children too, even when they begin to learn to walk and fall, after all, we don’t abandon them due to the fact that they fall while taking their first steps. Right? We are trying to support them, to help them get up. The question is when they learn to walk, where will they go? It’s the same here. During the spiritual growth of a person himself, on his path, when he really comes into contact with the Spiritual World, not in illusions, not in fantasies in his head, but in reality, when he makes efforts not in a game, not in order to give some appearance to anyone, but truly, and he truly gains experience, then it is extremely difficult to refuse it. It’s possible, I’m not saying that it’s impossible. This happens, when a person is seduced (well, anything can happen in life), he makes a mistake, but it’s impossible to refuse it because the biggest loss that a person can have is the loss of this inner spiritual love if he has come into contact with it. This is much harder than losing a life, losing near and dear ones, the whole world and everything else. Well, all that relates to the mind, while this relates to Life. Of course, it is hard. Nevertheless, when a person comes into contact, then he doesn’t want to lose this. How can you lose, or strive to lose what you are, the true Life?
And you understand that the Spiritual World loves you so much, that it is so generous, it is always ready to accept you. And whatever you do, whatever happens, the main thing is never to stop and never to yield to persuasions from consciousness. And you know, there is another great tool, I recall, in one of the videos Igor Mikhailovich Danilov said that when you are on the up, when you’ve just performed a great spiritual practice or you’ve gained some strong understanding, you are overfilled with feelings — get it on camera, record it for yourself. Because at these moments you will know that it’s you who is saying that, after all, you are telling it to yourself. Because you will not deceive yourself. Meaning, it’s you who’s talking about the manifestation of your feelings, it is your personal experience. And when you rewatch it, it will bring you back to these very feelings, and again everything will fall in its place. And all sorts of these counter-arguments from consciousness, all kinds of these little problems, how it makes drama — they will not seem so real because you have the other side too, the other counter-argument. You yourself can weigh it, return and see that this is really so.
You know, this moment when you see all the duality, you see how consciousness… how everything is logical from the perspective of consciousness, in principle. Meaning, you have consciousness too, and you see how it builds everything. You really can get absorbed in all this, if you don’t have the other part which you also know well. And inside you know what is true and what is not, because you have felt it, you’ve had a strong experience of a contact with the Spiritual World, and it’s not going anywhere — you know it!
And do you know what really motivates? That while walking your own path you see what you have to overcome, you see that you had a huge number of doubts too, various mindsets which were hard for you to overstep. And you understand that everybody has the same situation, but you realise that if you’ve managed to step over it, if you’ve managed to go further, then everyone will manage it. And you understand that a person, for example, the worst person today whom we can imagine, tomorrow can be the best person on Earth and can do plenty of good things. Just because he decided so.
After all, the Spiritual World actually doesn’t care who you were. The main thing is who you are now. And the decision of each of us can change everything and change it very fast. Just if we want it.
“I’m not sure, Rigden… Still a part of the whole is a part because it repeats the features of the whole in its individuality. In such conditions and with the prevalence of matter, it’s unlikely that the part will be able to become an integral unit, especially on the final stage of this project.”
“Even with such a state of affairs, the part still has a chance to become the whole,” uttered Sensei.
“Right, especially with its neglect to what is happening, it will be equal to the ratio of one to a billion,” Ariman said mockingly.
“Let it be so, but it’s still a real chance for it,” thoughtfully replied his interlocutor.
From Sensei of Shambala. Book III by Anastasia Novykh