INSIGHTS WITHOUT MASKS with Alyona from Borispol. About making plans. Consciousness’ deception. LIFE VLOG
Consciousness constantly tries to divert the Personality from its spiritual development by making plans. Consciousness actively imposes various thoughts and event scenarios. And these thoughts evoke a bunch of different emotional states in a person. It can be some kind of anxious anticipation, joy, grief or fear. But in any case, consciousness simply “eats” our life energy in such a manner by means of a person’s attention, which he puts into illusory images in his head. The programme: "Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive" gives an opportunity to understand what real life is, and why it’s so important to give up making plans and learn to live "here and now".
Good afternoon, my friends! Today I’m recording the second VLOG of "My Insights." And this time, I would like to talk about making plans, because I got this understanding and insight after watching the programme "Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive." I do my best to watch this programme every day. Even if I really have no time, at least for 5 or 10 minutes, or an hour or two, I definitely try to watch it as many times as possible. And while I’m watching or after watching, I am observing. This is such a great help to me on the journey to my spiritual liberation. It really helps me to observe the work of my consciousness. And this time, while yet again observing my consciousness work, I became aware of such a thing as making plans.
I am the kind of a person who really likes order and having an action plan. I really like making plans. But who inside me likes it? I took a look at this: got out a notepad, and then I was writing and observing. That when I plan something like a trip somewhere, or a journey, or a meeting, or a conversation. And if my consciousness shows me pictures in my head about what and how it will be, in reality, it doesn't happen like that. Either I don’t go there for some reason, or the meeting gets cancelled, or the person can’t make it... So in any case, I realized that my planning is meaningless. It just eats up my time. It eats up my energy. I realized that when I plan, I actually give my consciousness the tools to keep me from doing something in the future. This is especially true when it comes to the ALLATRA movement itself. If I plan some meetings or trips in advance, it does everything to arrange this in a different way or, even better, to get it cancelled altogether.
That's why the main question is: why do I, myself, give these tools to my consciousness? I have analyzed this and came to an understanding that I probably prefer this motto: "In this life, do what you can, and come what may." I much prefer to act like this, to be able to defy my consciousness and change my decision at any time. For example, if I didn’t plan to go anywhere, but later I just get up and go. But then there is such a delicate moment here: you do this in spite of it, through the pain, so to speak. This happens very often if we talk about the inner feeling, about what I feel. For example, there’s some trip, I need to go somewhere, and I feel inside how it doesn’t want to go there. And it doesn’t want me to go there. If I give up at this point and don’t remember that Me and “it” are completely different things, I may yield to it and just say: "Well, OK, I don’t want to." At this point, something happens inside me, a kind of “whew”. I mean, it’s like I have surrendered to my consciousness. And I try to keep track of such cases and still act against it. My consciousness is actually still ... If I plan something, then at the level of feelings, it shows me images of the planned action, and if we talk about inner experience, it turns out, that in any case, I am driven by my emotions. As far as I know from the programme "Consciousness and Personality….", emotion is food for the demon, food for my consciousness. That is, it’s the Allat transformed into anti-Allat, with which I feed my consciousness, meaning, it just can’t live without it. So, it turns out, that when I am making plans, I experience an emotion: either joy, or grief, anxious anticipation or euphoria. In any case, it’s an emotion. And often, I ask myself a question when I see very intrusive thoughts that I find extremely difficult to cope with. I often hear this very annoying suggestion from it. And these pictures, if I fall for them, they, as a rule, carry an emotion inside. And if there is an emotion, that means I voluntarily give my own energy for feeding the system. After all, this is so convenient for it. It's very convenient for my consciousness to know everything about me. Actually, here in three-dimensionality, it knows everything about me anyway. It already knows all my sore points where it hurts the most, all my patterns, all my thoughts, because my thoughts are generated by consciousness. Consciousness is the guardian of the system; and, therefore, I can’t hide anything from the system.
And when I realize this, the work of my consciousness, I just try as hard as possible to resist it. I try to just Live. When things are very hard for me, that is when Love and Gratitude help me. I concentrate my attention on breathing in - Love, breathing out - Gratitude. And this really helps me to get away from the tricks of my consciousness. When I’m not pulled by the strings of my consciousness, I feel some inner freedom, inner lightness, inner truth, some kind of expansion, of depth. I'm just happy. This voice of conscience, it helps me in everything. And I do my best to follow the inner voice of conscience, because if I follow my consciousness, I will carry its programs into the world. And in this case, it means that when I carry its programs, for sincerity, the door is closed. And if there is no sincerity, I’m just lying to myself. I accept the conversations of consciousness, and I’m just lying to myself. And I try to get away from this. As it says in the programme "Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive": "What’s the difference what someone else’s consciousness will think about me? I don’t care at all. " And when I’m not just saying it to myself, but when I truly comprehend this, I begin to feel free and easy. And this is that flag, this is that direction that I want to keep every second, every minute during the day. Because no matter what my plans are, I don’t really know whether I will be alive the next minute. I don’t know anything, and I can’t take any kind of power onto myself and plan something, do something. But when I remember that in just a second, I may not be on this planet and that I can miss the most important, the main thing in my life, I immediately remember who I really am and what my goal is.
Thank you so much for your attention! I would be very grateful if you would share your thoughts and leave comments.
All the best!