While watching the programmes on the ALLATRA TV channel, I have been noticing that some changes are happening to me, I have new insights and understandings…
And today, I would like to share one of my understandings with you.
It is related to inner inspiration.
Good afternoon, everyone!
Today I would like to share my new insight after watching the programmes on the ALLATRA TV channel, especially after watching the programme "Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive" and the new programme "About Spiritual Grace".
While watching these programmes, I have been noticing that some changes are happening to me, I have new insights and understandings…. And today my insight is on the subject of “My inspiration.”
There was this interesting moment: I had a day off. In the morning, I woke up and had a strong inner inspiration to paint a picture today. This inspiration was so warm and tender, as if somebody gave me this power, and it is just bubbling inside me and... Some kind of incredible energy, it was bright and full of feelings. And at that moment, I noticed that my consciousness began to tell me that the dishes and clothes haven’t been washed, that I have to clean the house and the windows, and generally, there is a lot of work to do. And at that point, a kind of fight, actually, started inside of me. Because, on the one hand, there was a very good inspiration, and on the other hand, an understanding that I really need to do some housekeeping work. But, thank God, based on my experience, I didn’t fight myself for long. My husband came over, and I told him: "Just imagine, I woke up with such an inspiration, in such a great mood, but I have to do this and that..." He looked at me and said: " Go and paint the picture. Do what you have the inspiration for." And it’s so interesting, when I sat down, I had such a day like... It was so warm-hearted ... This inspiration ... The picture turned out great. I can even say that I didn’t really apply any effort to it, somehow everything was so warm and cozy. It felt like I was doing what I should be doing. Like I'm in a right place. The feeling of "here and now". But the most interesting thing is that at that moment, I still didn’t understand anything.
A couple of days later, a client came over to see me, saw my work and immediately took it with her, saying that it emits something very warm. And at that moment, you know, thank God, I managed to avoid feeling prideful, but managed to think about: "And what does it emit?” Why does this painting carry more warmth than another? "And I recalled my inspiration. And then I started to analyze, I began to understand more. And I remembered how often I have such inspirations in my life, but I listen to my consciousness, to my thoughts and just lose it. Many times, I get an inspiration to read "AllatRa" book, to read it right away, to leave everything and just read the book. But consciousness says: "No, no, no. First we need to wash dishes, start the washer, make dinner ... " And then it brings up very interesting pictures: we will make a cup of tea, sit in a chair and take out the book "AllatRa". And it is such a nice picture, how we will be reading "AllatRa" with pleasure. You know, if you ask me honestly, did I ever do what I had an inspiration for? No. I also often caught myself having an inspiration to do a spiritual practice. Maybe it's not called inspiration, I don’t know, I named it so for myself, as I understood it for myself. When there is already some inner light, some feeling of happiness, calmness, and at this moment, you just want to sit in an armchair, close your eyes and just immerse into the practice, and I understand that this practice is already under way. But very often, my consciousness would start to switch it to household issues, that something hasn’t been done, or washed, or cooked. First we will do it, and then you will definitely sit down for the practice. And as a rule, even if I started the practice later, I'll tell you honestly: it was useless, as all my energy, all my inspiration was spent on washing dishes and cleaning. And this was such a bright insight, I felt so good about it, you know, as if I had caught a thief. As if I had caught a thief of my consciousness, I just realized that it steals those forces of my inspiration, the power of God... I can’t call it differently, because it comes from God, because it's light, it's warm, radiant, and you should spend it on that which it was given for. Such an inspiration often came to me to write some article, disseminate something via the Internet, read a book, or do a practice. I listen to my consciousness so often, I'm even a little hurt, no, not hurt, it pains me, for myself ... How is it possible to be so stupid and not see the basic things?
That’s why, inside me, after this insight, there is simply a feeling of Love and Gratitude to God for such epiphanies and insights, and understandings that come to me, and I have an opportunity to share them with other people, with my friends. All people on this planet are close, with all of you.
Thank you very much, go ahead and catch your thief by the tail! Don’t give it your energy, which is not yours, which must be spent on what is needed, on your liberation, on your Life, the real Life.
Thank you very much!
See you soon!
All the best!