Who am I and what is my goal? Lying to myself. INSIGHTS WITHOUT MASKS with Alyona from Borispol.
Every person strives for something in his life. But what is his true aspiration? To go where? Is this really his true purpose in life?
After watching the programme "Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive", there comes a deep understanding of who am I? What is my purpose? What is Love? If one watches this unique programme frequently, then every time it becomes more and more difficult to lie to yourself. It helps Personality on the way Home, into Eternity. It makes a person free. In this Life Vlog, Alyona shares how to be genuine, how not to pretend.
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I was just driving, and I understood everything, and I decided to record the Life Vlog right away so as not to let the consciousness erase or twist it. What was this important insight? After visiting the ALLATRA IPM Coordination Center as well as watching the programmes with Igor Mikhailovich Danilov “Consciousness and Personality. From the inevitably dead to the eternally Alive”, “Suicide. Post-Death Destiny” and “Murder at a Distance. The resurrection of the dead” (with each new viewing, these programmes affect me more and more strongly), and an understanding came to me that a lot of my time, I invested the energy, which is given to me, in the wrong things. I lied to myself, meaning, there was a substitution of purpose. And what was it replaced by? My consciousness really doesn’t want to talk about this now, it says: “Well, you have understood now! Well done! Well, you yourself have understood, this is for you, you don’t need to talk about this to others”. But still, I will share. My insight was that there was a substitution of purpose.
What is my purpose? For a very long time, my purpose was not becoming an Angel, not getting closer to the world of God, but the goal was to be closeby, near Igor Mikhailovich Danilov, to be as close to him as possible. But I ignored those thoughts, I said: “No, it's not true, it doesn’t matter”. I was lying to myself. I was lying to myself so much, that I believed all of it myself. But now I understand - the goal had been substituted. And when I realized this, I understood everything! The goal had been substituted - to be closeby, to be with him. And to be close not like Andrei is, but even closer. And then I started to analyze it. I thought: “All right, well”. I caught this thread, started to pull it, unroll it. Okay, supposing I want to be next to him. Although consciousness says: "No, no, that's not true, you want to be an angel, you want to find the eternal life". Well, alright. So, I told it:“Okay, go ahead!”. And it started showing me vivid pictures and I just started to observe them. The pictures were: here I am, everywhere always near Igor Mikhailovich, I am filmed in all programmes with him, I go with him everywhere, everyone sees me with him. And then the pictures went on, and it became even more interesting - I get respect, I’m considered to be wise, important, my crown is getting polished and I’m just this big hot-shot. That is, basically, “to seem, but not to be”! And I understood everything. So here it is! But in truth, I don’t want this. That is what my consciousness wants. And it really doesn’t want to be an Angel, it doesn’t want to gain Life, it wants power. And power... It's so easy to build power based on the "AllatRa" book, on Igor Mikhailovich, since you are close, you are thought to be extremely wise, basically already an Angel. I mean, to seem, but not to be. And it became so simple for me! I felt so good! I realized - it’s a substitution of the goal. That is not my goal. I actually want something completely different - I want to Live! And it doesn’t matter where he is and it doesn’t matter... None of it matters.
And then, immediately such understandings became clear how to do good deeds, take some action, do projects at the Coordination Center. What for? Is it really my inner need to help, to get the message across, or is it just to show off? And then I realized that, in fact, you should do good and just let it go. And there is no need to show off or boast... And because… It even hurt me, the Personality, when I imagined that, yes, I'm close, that’s it, here is fame. So, I got everything, and then it’s the end... of this three-dimensional life. And then what? And no one will help me, and I understood this. Nobody will help me: not Igor Mikhailovich or anybody else, because this whole time, instead of working on myself, I was building a fame pedestal, a career pedestal, for myself. I realized that I don’t need this! And it's very easy, very nice, it’s so freeing! After all, I don’t need this, consciousness needs it, but not me! Thank you all very much! I wish you all bright insights, understandings. Share them, please, it is very needed, it is very important! And be happy! Thank you!